I feel really happy today. Like, seriously happy! This isn’t a “brag post”, but I am going to verbalise why I’m feeling all of the gratitude and the happiness today. And why shouldn’t I brag once in a while about what’s making me smile?
I think if more of us looked for the sparkly, happy, glittery aspects of life, the world might just be a little bit more positive.
I said that my only resolution this year was to focus on myself and making me happy. It’s a bit of a selfish one, but I do think that it will make life better for my family too. Now, in order to make myself happy, it’s not about spoiling myself materialistically. It’s about being kinder to myself. It’s about cutting negativity from my life as much as I can, and focussing on those people, places and things that bring me genuine joy. My first month on this journey is over, and I’m feeling pretty damn positive about it.
For as long as I can remember I’ve always had a tendency to focus on the negativity too often. Permanent anxiety and frequent episodes of depression can do that. This being said, I’m seriously working on improving this about myself. I still have days when my anxiety comes out as anger or uncontrollable tears, but by actively trying (note the word trying– it’s not always easy) to “suck it up” and proactively seek out things that make me happy, I’m having fewer outbursts and episodes. My hormones are everywhere, what with the delightful PCOS and all, so it’s a constant battle to try and control them, but I’m finding out what’s working for me. One day at a time.
So, what’s put me in such a good mood this week? It’s had it’s wee slips but I simply feel good at the minute. I’m not even upset that I couldn’t get Ed Sheeran tickets. Once over I would’ve been green with envy and foul about this. I’m fine about it now- so long as my lovely friend concert calls me when she’s there! And instead of acting like a spoilt brat, I’m just very thankful of the opportunities I do have this year, which make me very lucky! Take That, anyone?! Woo!
January was it’s dark, miserable, shitty self, but I didn’t buy into pathetic fallacy this year. Was I tired? Yep! I always am during January. I’m normally detoxing from Christmas, and catching up on work. The dark night and dark mornings don’t help either. But did it drag me down as much as usual? Absolutely not!
I kicked off January, and 2017, by predictably joining a weight loss club- this time, Slimming World. I lost 11lbs in the three weeks since joining, and I’m feeling good. I have kind of annoyed myself at how many times I’ve lost weight, only to put it all back on, since having Noah. But Noah’s 5 this year! No more excuses… I’m forgetting my less successful attempts and committing myself to losing the weight this time. And keeping it off! I’ve got goals, a time-frame and even a LBD ready to wear once I hit my first target weight. I’m hoping that I’ll be in my dress by my 32nd birthday in September. I haven’t had this dress on since NYE 2011! It’s about time it got an outing, don.t you think?!
Another thing that has made me very happy this month is the discovery of all things HYGGE! For those of you that’s don’t know what it is, it’s a Danish concept/way of life, and I am so into it! I started with this book, which cost me £5 from Amazon and is now making it’s way around my friends!
Seriously, get a copy! It’ll teach you the art of embracing the simple life. It’s amazing!
Reading has actually played a huge part in my happiness this month. I’ve read a lot of books written by strong, powerful women. They’ve either been about someone sharing their truth (Mad Girl by Bryony Gordon), or they’ve been advice books on living the life you really want. Old me would’ve mocked such books, but I am so pleased I’ve discovered these more informative texts. My favourites have been Girl Code and Sparkle, both by Cara Alwill Leyba. These books have brought The Champage Diet into my life… ladies, check this blog out! Cara is sassy, intelligent, killing it in business, and just pretty damn fabulous! I definitely think that my obsession with books and reading has been reignited. It’s nice to be reading a range of novels and texts that I wouldn’t ordinarily have gone for. Please recommend any books to me… I’m on the hunt for variety!
Earlier I said about setting goals for motivation when it comes to my weight loss, but I’ve also done the same for my future. I’ve had the seed of an idea for Fabulous and Us for a long time, and I’m about to bite the bullet and go for it! I’m not going to disclose too much yet, as I’ve got training to do, experience to build, and a lot of hard work to put in, but I’ve found what I need to do to get to where I want to be. And how exciting is that?! It’s going to be amazing, and I’m going to kick some serious arse to get what I want! Bring it on!
Of course, one thing I’m thankful for this month was our phenomenal trip to London! It truly was an incredible weekend, and definitely what Andy and I needed. Some time away, living it up and having fun. Coming back to reality wasn’t as bad as usual, because I am grateful for what I have in life, and just needed a wee escape to highlight this. I think a trip to London may have to become an annual thing though. It would be rude not to return, wouldn’t it?
We got some amazing news this week- one of my best friends gave birth to a beautiful little boy! What better news could anyone want to boost happiness? I cannot wait to meet him and I’m so pleased for my friend and her family! Welcome to the world, Jacob!
Today I went into Noah’s school for Numeracy Day! It was wonderful to see him learning, and showing me what he does with numbers. It truly filled me with happiness to see him with his friends, and interacting differently. I sometimes worry that he’s going to be at a disadvantage by being an only child, but school is teaching him to be kind, caring, loving and sweet. What more do I need to know? He’s a little star and he’s thriving at such a good school.
What else am I expressing gratitude for this month? So many things… music, building a vinyl collection (including some I’ve got on loan from my Dad from back in the day!), family gatherings, the kids having fun, friendships, Grey’s Anatomy being back, coffee (as always), making progress with classes at school… I’ve so many things making me happy this month!
I’m going to try to write an post similar to this at the end of each month. The reflective process is surely going to help me focus more and remain motivated and committed to happiness. Give it a try, it’s truly empowering!