As a little girl I dreamt of big things. I dreamt of being a superstar, of changing the world, of making a difference. I would live my life as a musical, and had a soundtrack to my epic biography planned. I would be the leading lady and there would be a Prince Charming to call my own. Then I grew up…
Having it all has certainly changed in my mind. Until two years ago it was all about the career. As a teacher, I feel that I can make that difference in life that I wanted to do as a child, just in a different way! Granted, it’s not the glamour that I imagined, but it has always been a rewarding vocation. Then along came my son, who made my life and ideals flip again. This tiny human changed my life more than I ever expected. Nothing prepared me for what he did to me. I swore I would never change for a man- coming from a girl who grew up listening to Destiny’s Child (“Bills, bills, bills” anyone?) and TLC (I most certainly did not want “no scrubs”)- but didn’t realise how my own little man would change me in an instant!
I digress, and risk being a baby bore! After my maternity I rushed back to my career (hello anti-depressants after realising I didn’t want to leave him). Ultimately I did things too soon. I looked down on women who we’re stay at home mums. Why did they not want their own life? My determination to have it all was so strong that I was blind to other options. I went for promotion after promotion, in a bid to prove that I could have it all; the perfect child, husband and career was attainable after all, wasn’t it?
For me, no! I crashed and I burnt. I’ve recently been beyond stressed, more so than I ever imagined I would feel. Family, work, life, happiness… The only thing that was prevailing was work. I took matters into my own hands before it was too late and stepped down at work, relinquishing the responsibility that was destroying me. My family, my life and my happiness must come first. For me, a “want it all career girl”, having it all actually doesn’t involve work.
What’s this got to do with a plus-sized website? Well, it’s me letting you know who I am, and what makes me happy. When I was stressed and finding it all too much, I did not eat well, I put on 28lb and I was unhappy. I’m hoping that this page inspires and entertains you all. There seems to be less of a plus size celebration going on in the UK and I’d like that to change.
Having it all means being happy with yourself. It means embracing who you are, for good or for bad, and learning to put down things that only cause you grief. Take time for you, do what you think is right, and put first whatever you want to put first.